Sound of Silence.

What moves through us is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, one more touch. People often say, seeing is believing. But when I saw you lying there motionless, I still can't believe that you are gone... It was a heart wrenching moment. I tried to hold back my tears. I couldn't. We may not understand why you left, but your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget - All the fun we had playing together when we were kids, my first overseas trip to Genting & KL with you and our family, having lunch together with you and chris at pizza hut after a tiring day at the themepark, chatting about school and what we wanna do in the future.. shopping and having our eyes set on the same pair of jeans.. That holiday trip 6 years ago was the closest I ever got to you. Then we all grew up, met only once a year during new year. But that sweet smile of yours is one thing I will never forget.

It's All Souls Day today... Exactly a month since you were gone...Ever since then, I had this tendency to look up into the sky during the cloudy days... wondering if you are finally in God's grace. But I guess God has given me the answer as I stumbled upon the first reading for 2nd Oct 2010.

Exodus 23:20
"See, I am sending an angel before you, to guard you on the way and bring you to a place I have prepared."

14 years ago, Grandpa's passing away had me making the first sign of the cross in my life. Now, your passing away has left me wanting to attend Sunday Masses even more regularly... Wanting to pray for you as much as I can..

May you rest in peace Jas, in the kingdom of God our Lord.